JUNIPER: the sex goddess

I remember how I said that I'm not gonna give up on him. and then one day you "see" me go emo and all with my recent posts and how I some what want to move on... I've done a lot of thinking... and I think I'm sticking to what I said that I'm not friggin' giving up on him! I've been too fcuking emotional and I should learn how to stop. (although there maybe times that i get emo and all. just ignore me. kthnksbai.)

Iono... a good friend of mine said do whatever makes me happy. And being happy for me is trying to have him even if it hurts me a lot. OOOORRRR... there's a saying that if you can't beat them, JOIN THEM. Maybe that's what I'm gonna try doing in this love game shit. Really, its tiring. But if you come to think of it, "it adds excitement to your life". Right? >:-}

*sighs*

Hmm let's see what's gonna happen next...

Currently watching: Gossip Girl S3Ep5
Currently feeling: weird tummy =/

And just when I am hoping that he gets intoxicated and all, he posts a "gay" pic of himself and says that "*insert girl's name here* come home na!"

I am officially the most devastated girl in the whole world! =(((((

Currently feeling: depressed

my tummy hurts! also I've been burping. :(

Anyway, hr's gonna be drinking tonight. Iono with who. Hopefully his barkada. And I also hope, he gets intoxicated and text/call me and eventually I'll be able to ask him questions I've been longing to ask. Because I'm a coward like that. Which he used to tell me, he easily gets intoxicated. Muhaha!

Gawd, I miss him. I couldn't help myself. I was the one who texted him this afternoon. *sighs* Ayun, parang he's civil towards me. And I'm like all serious. *doh* Oh well. Iono what'll happen again next. I don't want to be really sad anymore. He's all I ever really want. :'-(

Currently listening to: some Incubus rock song, iono the title...
Currently feeling: sad

I wonder why certain people just break my heart (and by certain, I actually, only mean, one). And what pisses me is that I always let my emotions win. :( I'm sorry, I'm a girl and were born that way -- emotional, that is. :( Why did I risk when I know I'm just gonna lose. For the nth time. All I want was to be happy and I never got it. :'-( It's like.. I just want to die, you know...

Currently feeling: depressed

*sniff, cry, wail* For the nth time, I'm sooo broken hearted. Again. I want to break down and cry. Why do I get attracted to bad boys and why do they notice me? :( Tapos they're going to hurt me emotionally, which is way more fucking difficult for me. Knowing how sensitive I am. :( What did I do to deserve something like this? I know life isn't perfect.. Pero sana love would spare me from all the heartaches. Mas matitiis ko pa problema sa pamilya once in a while, pero itong problema sa puso, ang hirap. Kasi ikaw lang mag-isa ang dumadanas nito. Well, yeah, family and friends would be there for you.. But the damage done.. Hindi naman na mababawi yun. Bakit ganito? Ayaw ko na talaga... But I'm holding on to what ate Pepper told us a while ago. Na this is not the end. Always think of happy thoughts and learn to let go. :( *cries* But how can I let go when I really love this person and then he suddenly becomes cold towards me. :( I miss the good old times...

I want to be happy, please.

Currently feeling: depressed

Gawrsh! I hate having monthly periods! These hormones! Stupid, stupid hormones!! =/ I should've known. Demmit. Haha! Been so dramatic when I really shouldn't have been acting TOO MUCH. Well, a little lang! hrhrrr :P

Hmm.. Need a plan! I NEED A PLAAANNN! >:D

Currently feeling: hopeful

...people here in tabulas talk about (500) Days of Summer! So I might as well talk about it. :P Hmm.. to cut it short.. I liked the movie! Iono, it's really nice. Funny too! I guess what made me like the movie is that it can happen in real life. And some parts of the movie, I can relate to it, I guess. But what's nice is that even if Zooey and Joseph didn't end up with each other, at least they found the right one for them. :)

Currently feeling: touched

Oh my I get sad whenever I drop by N's page and see that she wrote something for J. I get annoyed and also reallyyy sad. I get jealous but then again, I have no right naman talaga. :( Though good thing I read, J doesn't reply to her unless N asks what his shoe & shirt size is. meh.

Okay, okay... in time.. I'm gonna be able to do the same for J!!

Currently feeling: hopeful